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    About 2 months ago, I gave up to my greatest job ever, it was one of the most exciting work place where I ever worked and also the place where I learned a lot of new things, a place with great achievements and also a place where I had the feeling that I ended as a 5th wheel on a car.
   There are many questions from my friends why I gave up and move from a job where I was paid XY$/hour to another place where I was paid XY.87 $/hour (XY are equal on both instances), so for 0.87$ extra....? well, it was not about the money, it was the way how I felt. My previous job was one of the longest jobs ever (almost 5 years) and it was the longest not because of money, it was the longest because I really loved what I was doing there. I failed in many things and I succeed in other things, I know that I'm really stubborn sometimes and most of the times I am challenged to be that way, but also I had the feeling that - if there's a record of what I had done - all the good things and all the efforts made to succeed were wiped out and only the bad things were kept. This is the life cycle and is shown that for a single bad thing what we do, it takes 10 good things to balance, when you see someone in a bad light, you can not see that person better, for that, our unconscious dictates that we must see that person as a cheater, bad person or whatever, regardless of how much that person will strive to prove it can do something better, that's the human nature and one year ago I've seen myself living for this work, now I'm no longer part of it. I am sad and I am glad in the same time.
Why sad? it could be few reasons here too:

•  because I put work on that network from the bottom of my heart and suddenly I felt that I was pushed away. A month before quitting I was asked if I can get another job because it would be the best for the company and me also... well, if I was the speed-bump for the company ... I have chosen to step aside.
• also sad because I left a great team, great colleagues which most of them were real friends and then coworkers and this is not easy to find.

Why glad? here are few reasons:

• not need to report hours each day, accounting presentation hours every two weeks, was a slow suicide, not because I was lazy to write hours on this sheet, but because I felt that the other 2 people are involved in counting and update times are require to do a extra job just for me..., I felt I had a millstone around my neck, and after all I have been a millstone for the company.
• I got to meet wonderful people and hope that they will remain in my circle of friends.
• Because of this company I discovered one of my greatest hobbies, skiing!

I don't know what I'm gonna do next, few projects going on, working on my own has good and bad side, depends how you look at it. I miss lot of things from my previous work place, the first thing is the network, the equipment, the calls received almost everyday from Dell, the team which used to be a while ago. In conclusion, I quit that job not because of the offer so much, but because of feeling that I am not wanted anymore there, some of you will say why I didn't discuss with anyone from the company about this... well, I can tell you that it was because weeks before resignation I was told that it would be the best if... so I did what I was suggested to do...
     Right now, I just want to leave this area, it makes me feel that I am no longer welcomed here even if nobody have told me that, at least OC it's not really a place for me, no wonder I never liked to live in cities as Anaheim, or Orange and nothing between...

     Can't wait to read this blog again after one month... will be interesting how many things has changed since now.. 06/11/2012 @ 1:58 AM.