friends... friendship... facebook... you call it!

    Most of us got best friends, friendship starting from the childhood and some of those friends stick around us for the whole life, some of them are just as long as we need them, or some as long as we call them on the phone, or as long as we visit them.
I use to think that those are my closest friends, call them every other day, then for some reason I have to move out of that town and bang... so called friends never call to check how the things works with me there, because they don't have minutes to call you, or, they consider enough what they get from me at the time when I call them. Interesting the fact that that I can count on my one hand fingers how many friends I have left from my childhood, and how many keep the friendship balanced (both parties are calling with the same frequency in a, let's say, one year period), the rest of them.... if I call, it's all good, if not... probably they say "I can see him on facebook", oooh, really? FACEBOOK, almost forgot about the almighty facebook, thanks to facebook, my "friends" don't have to spend $0.025-0.04/minute to call me long distance to the United States (that's the usual cost per minute from Europe to the United States), or to use their airtime minutes to call and check up. Of course, we can blame the time-zone difference, or we can blame each other, but after all, let's draw a line and count how many time did I call he/she, how many time did she/he call me, then let's add a third row, how many times we think about that friend.
   So, I am wondering if the facebook actually did really got us closer? in a way about seeing pictures about our friends YES (or at least ones who post pictures of themselves online), but in a way of communication between each other... talking each other, getting closer ... for sure NO. It's true, I found some old classmates on FB, friends who I use to share things in my childhood.
  I wrote this not to excuse myself on my relations towards my friends, I am writing this mostly to blame myself, maybe for being too worried in the past with some friends and then suddenly I drop my worries and "forgot" about them.
  Some of them don't even realize that I didn't call for such a long time, some... realize that I don't call so often and probably they ask themselves why? what happened? What did I do wrong?. Well, you didn't do anything wrong... I just became one of you! :-)

dream Déjà vu?

     Sometimes I feel that I have the same dream for 2-3 nights in a row, or in some cases that I have dreamed about the same or with the same characters before. For 3 nights in a row, I had a dream about being in Serbia somewhere. I was in Belgrade with some co-workers trying to get somewhere close to Sava river and where the foreign embassies are located in Belgrade, claiming that we must stick around that area due to our own safety. However, the fact the 3 night in a row I am dreaming about the same place make me to worry about who knows what "spark" might get out of there, or, it could be that I really admired that city so much by the time when I was there in 2008?
     What should I believe? I remember that I use to read in bible about dreams, God might talk with us thru dreams, or the dreams are just a result of our worries. It might be one or another or both, we just need to de-scramble the whole dream meaning... Maybe many times we dream about the same thing, but we just don't remember. Most of the dreams are forgotten, unfortunately most of our life dreams are forgotten too.